My Mom is flying to St. Louis in a few hours to go see my grandma who might be dying. It's so strange you know? I don't really know her as well as I could and for some reason I feel guilty about that. I miss Mike A Lot. He is all the way across the state while I am here in Spanaway. I miss everything about him. The way he smells, the way he feels, and way he talks, just everything. This is insane. I don't think I have ever missed someone this much in my entire life. He told his parents that he's in love with me. She then asked if I was the One. what does the one even mean? I can see us together for a long long time and for some reason that doesn't scare me like it used to. I love him so much. I really want these next two weeks to go by fast. I'll pray for my mom.